So today is day 32 and it is officially time to pay the piper with more updated pics of my progress. Although I really don’t want to. I was pretty frustrated yesterday trying to take these pics because I couldn’t find the original shirt and also, I just wasn’t super happy about my progress and then my camera batteries died. I’m trying not to feel too frustrated with myself because I know my diet change may help a little. It is still there though. I just don’t understand why it’s so hard for me and not for others. You know when people lose weight and other people say, “Wow, that weight just fell of you!”. When is it gonna fall off of me? In fact it seems like it is stuck to me like stinking gorilla glue and I just want to cry cause its seems like it’s never going to leave. It feels like it’s just not meant to happen for me. I hate these pictures because for some reason, my face looks fatter! How have I been eating healthier and giving up soda and giving up fried foods and working out everyday and my face look fatter?!?!? I don’t understand! The negative me in the back of my mind is saying, “Might as well eat whatever the hell I want if I’m going to look exactly the same!!” 🙁 I am so sad that I won’t be writing too much in today’s blog. I lost 1.8 lbs in the last 2 weeks. I felt good because the lowest weight I’ve been this year was 217 and I finally reached a lower number on the scale. This should make me feel good but it is overshadowed by the pictures and the fact that only lost 1.8 lbs! I know I can see definite changes in the pictures from March and now but i wanted to see the same changes in my challenge photos. Well here they are. No point in wasting time.
With 32 days down and 58 to go, I feel optimistic that changes will come. I just have to figure out a way to maximize my results. I have never been a salad person. I despise salads. I have tried to do this without really eating a whole bunch of salads. Don’t get me wrong, I eat tons and tons of veggies! Just not raw veggies. So maybe that is what I will try to add more off. More raw vegan meals and less carbs. I just know I need to do something different from what I am doing now. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting the same results. Well I want different results. I want better results. In 2 weeks, I know I will see a change because I will be changing my eating and portions and everything. I just want to be a healthy weight that isn’t considered obese on any charts. I’m tired of being obese. I have been obese my whole life! I have been the fat sister and I have been the fat daughter and I just want to be something else! Today I will go home and I will do Fire 30 and Stretch 10 and try not to let myself be discouraged. I will probably cry a little but I will not quit.
(Above)This was a Boca Turk’y burger with Chao cheese on a red cabbage leaf with spinach, romaine, and cabbage inside with tomatoes and onions and a little vegan mayo and ketchup.
(Above) This is a salad I will be having for lunch today. It is romaine lettuce, spinach, red cabbage, onions, tomatoes, and steamed broccoli. I have some Italian dressing to add to it.
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