Day 24 – The Struggle Is Real/ We cried Together/ I Made It To Week 4!!!

Happy Day 24, Mama’s!!!

The Struggle

Good Morning, Y’all! So excited to be another day closer to my goal. I can’t help but to think back to my first day and how 90 days seemed like so long. 30 days seemed like it might never arrive and now I’m only 6 days away from it. It feels like it kind of snuck up on me. Maybe because it doesn’t seem like I’m making the progress I wanted to be making at this point. I do feel better but I just don’t feel like I’m losing any weight. I have definitely been eating healthier and taking all of my vitamins and doing my pre and post workout drinks with even more vitamins and nutrients in them. Today I started to incorporate a wheat-grass shot into my morning routine as well. This week has been kind of a struggle for me. I hated using the laptop for my workouts. I could barely hear the music or Chalene. Those are the things that motivate me the most and make me work out harder. When she yells “YOUR NOT TIRED!!!”, I start to believe it. The music really amps me up. Makes me want to shake it a little harder or jump a little higher. The laptop just wasn’t loud enough. Yesterday was a good day, though. I got home and the TV was back! I really missed it! I was able to do my workout and hear all of the music and hear all of Chalene’s encouraging words! Today I am feeling all of my muscles! I have been drinking the post-workout BCAA’s but I can’t tell if they are working. I am feeling very sore today. I wonder if maybe I am waiting to long to drink it. Monday (Day 22) was en especially hard workout. I think that might have been due to taking that extra day off but it could have also been due to not eating so great on those days plus… I drank soda! 🙁 I know!! So horrible!! Hello, My name is Rafina. I am an emotional eater and food comforts me! My baby was sick and I ate and drank good while sitting at home taking care of him. I did great when it came to abstaining from alcohol AND especially the dreaded cigarettes. Food, however, is my weakness! I love a bag of popcorn with a nice cold soda. I am weak. So I think this was the cause of Monday’s workout being so exhausting. I made it through the workout but I’m not going to lie, I struggled to make it through the 10 minute stretch. That is crazy to me because it’s a stretch! My muscles were shaking and i could barely hold the poses. I only did about half of them. Maybe I wasn’t hydrated enough. I’ve been averaging about 115 to 130 ounces of water per day. Maybe I need to try to drink more. I do workout pretty hard every day so maybe my body needs more hydration. Something for me to add to my To-Do-List.

He cried, I cried, We cried

Sometimes being a Mama can be really emotional. This weekend was one of those emotional mama times. I have been so happy that Sammy is finally back to his happy and active and BAD self! He is such a ball of energy. Always running and moving and playing. So yesterday when I got home from work, I was greeted by Nicolas and Samuel. I got them apples and juice and we hung out till it was time to get the older kids from school. I let them walk with me up to the school to get Izzie and Lil Will. They really enjoyed that. I think they like to be free instead of confined to the stroller every once in a while. Once we picked up the older ones we went home and everyone had pop tarts for a snack. They have these little ride on toys that they love to play with everyday. Sammy likes to push his brothers and sister which is weird because he is the youngest so you would think he would want to be pushed instead of doing the actual pushing. Just one of the things I love about him. Well at one point I went into my room to change or do something and I went to close the door behind myself and did not notice a little someone had rode up behind me on his car. I closed the door and I guess he reached his little hand up to stop me from closing the door and his finger got caught in the door jam! He cried so loud. I was so mad at myself for not looking to make sure no one was behind me before shutting the door but I didn’t. He wouldn’t even let me look at his little fingers. I had to force his hand open. It was cut on both sides and turned a little red but I couldn’t tell if it was broken or what. I figured I would give it a minute. He kept crying though and I just felt so bad. He was inconsolable. Finally he started to calm down a little but then he started again. I tried to put an ice pack on it and he cried even more! These jerking sobs but he kept pushing the hand into me,  as I held him, with the hurt finger and I thought it couldn’t be broke if he was doing that. This did not stop me from sobbing. I was sitting there crying and telling him that mama was so sorry and he was crying and we were just crying together! I was so upset cause I felt like I should know better after 5 kids than to close a door without looking behind me first! Ugh! After about 20 minutes he finally started to calm down. I ended up sitting on the couch with his little arms wrapped around my neck and after a few minutes of quiet I pulled out my phone and started watching videos on Facebook. He was so quiet that I turned my camera on my phone on to see if he was sleep (I didn’t want to move him and make him cry again) but he wasn’t. He was just staring at the phone so I put the videos back on. A dance video came on and he started to sing. The next video he started to dance and next thing I know he wanted to get down and go play. I was so relieved! He was trying to tickle me with the hand that had the hurt finger so I guess it wasn’t broken, just hurt! Such a relief! These kids are something else sometimes!

The End Of Week 4 and Month 1

I am so proud of myself for making it this far in my 90 challenge. I can’t believe it is almost 30 day! With that being said, I will be posting the next four weeks of my schedule next Monday I guess. The one thing I am not looking forward to is the weigh in and picture! lol I know it shouldn’t be something to dread. Especially since I’ve stuck to the workout schedule for the most part and have done very well with my eating too. I probably could have done a lot better during the first week with the soda and then this past weekend with the soda again. I guess we all have our coping mechanisms. Things we do to comfort ourselves. I always wonder what I did before I became overweight. It has been so long since I wasn’t overweight. I hardly remember anything from yesterday, let alone 2 decades ago! Oh well, self sabotage seems to be my forte so I really need to figure out a better way to fight these soda cravings. Maybe I can find a suitable substitute for it. Something sweet with no added sugars or whatever. Something for me to add to my To-Do-List!

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