Happy Day 15, Mama’s!!!
I have officially made it halfway through month 1! Woohoo!! I just realized this when I started to write this post. Sometimes you have to celebrate the small accomplishments on the way to your big accomplishments. To help keep you motivated and going strong. Sometimes when that goal seems so far away we might start to think that we will never make it or think about quitting. When you have smaller milestones before you reach your grand finale it helps you overall motivation. Back in February when I did my first 2 month TurboJam schedule I was able to do the whole 2 months. I don’t think I paid any attention to reaching the 2 week mark. I was so big then and had so much weight to lose that 2 weeks didn’t seem like it did anything. Plus the fact that I knew I needed to make a change in my life for my health, quitting was definitely not an option at that time. When I did the schedule for the second time at the beginning of May I worked out for exactly 2 weeks before quitting. I was working so hard because my Birthday was on the 19th and we were taking a vacation (My Hubby’s birthday is on the 20th so we always celebrate with a mini vacay). It really paid off because I could see the results of doing that 2 weeks more so than when I hit my 2 week mark the first time. The bad part was that I kind of quit after that. I would workout here and there but no more schedule. That was very dumb on my part because I was seeing results! Why would someone quit when they are seeing results? Well there is no point in beating myself up for my past mistakes. I have yet again reached the 2 week mark and do not plan on making the same mistake again. I will be taking updated pictures tonight and doing the dreaded weigh in. There probably won’t be much of a difference because it has only been 2 weeks. I can seem like a lot in the grand scheme of things but it’s really not.
Changing My Workout Schedule
So I know I talked about missing workout days in my Blog for Day 8 – Love + Happiness = FAT. SO I did the same thing this week that I was so mad at myself for doing last week. Now in my own defense we had a lot of stuff that we had to do on Friday. It was like I got a workout! lol Me and the Hubby woke up and got the kids dressed and ready for school. We ended up washing every item of clothing in our house including bedding and pillows and curtains and etc. We have a washer and dryer but didn’t want to spend the whole weekend washing clothes so we went to the nearby laundry mat. We loaded everything up in the back of the pick up and unloaded everything. When everything was washed we folded everything while still at the laundry mat. By the time we left, it felt like my arms were about to fall of. Then when we got home we cleaned massively. The Hubby got the Rug Doctor out and cleaned the rugs and the couches in the family room which is basically the kids living room so it was stinking filthy! I took on our bedroom and cleaned it from top to bottom which was no easy task. By the time we were done we were exhausted. We just settled down for the night and watched movies. We were barely able to move ourselves off the couch! The next day I want feeling good at all so I skipped working out for that reason. Too much dust inhalation because my nose was running and I was sneezing all day. I really wanted to get more cleaning done on Saturday but that didn’t happen either. After missing these same two days I decided to make a change to the schedule. I figure, why fight it? Why should I keep being so hard on myself for not sticking to a schedule that was made by someone who doesn’t even know me or what my life is like. When Trainers make meal plans and schedules for their clients they tailor it to fit the needs and lifestyle of each individual client. It’s not one size fits all. So the conclusion I’ve come up with is that my rest days will be moved to Friday and Saturday and I will do a double workout on one of my days to make up for that extra day I’m missing. This way I can stick to my schedule without the guilt. I need my 2 days free to clean house and do all of the stuff that I just don’t have time to do during the week. It’s my schedule and I am the boss of it. As long as I keep doing all of my workouts and eating clean, I am still doing good.
Dreaming Of My Future
Last night dreamed I had lost all the weight I wanted to lose. That I had reached my goal. I looked in the mirror and was totally shocked. Like I was me yesterday and woke up this morning and was 50 lbs lighter! I was so excited in my dream. I couldn’t believe it! I wanted to go out and buy a dress. I wanted to get dressed up and sexy to go out with my Husband! I wanted to wear high heels. It was a nice dream. I don’t know exactly what the dream meant. Yup, I’m one of those people who think dreams have meanings. I might never know what it is but I do feel like when there is something on your mind, that it manifests itself in your dreams. With this being the end of week 2, I am feeling a little scared. I don’t want to mess up and I don’t want to quit. I really want to lose weight. I don’t want to be skinny. I just want to be fit and in shape and healthy. Although, I haven’t been a none pudgy person since before my oldest child was born. I have always had a soft belly. I have always been a size 12 to a 14. I don’t remember what it was like before that or what I was like. It has been almost 20 years. Sometimes that can be a little daunting. I think to myself sometime, “How do I know if I can do this if I’ve never done it before?”. I have a friend who got Gastric Bypass Surgery at the beginning of this year and has already lost over a hundred pounds. I am so happy for her and her success. I saw her before and after picture on Facebook and maybe that made me dream of a drastic weight loss for myself. I feel so happy for her but at the same time I am so jealous. I started my weight loss journey at the same time as her. She doesn’t even really workout. The weight just fell off and meanwhile I’m over here working so hard and trying to eat healthier and I have only lost 30 lbs. Then again I hate when I don’t appreciate what I have accomplished because that 30 lbs did make a world of difference. I hate feeling jealous. I just want it to be real and not just a dream. I want to be able to wear whatever I want to wear and not have to worry about if I look fat. I want to take pictures and not worry about if my double chin is showing and if I’m the fattest person in the picture. I want to NOT be defined as severely obese. Well I guess that is the point of what I am doing. I guess some people have to work a little harder to reach their goals and I am one of those people. I may not know what my future self will look like since I have spent the majority of my adult life overweight but I can still picture it. I can still see it in my mind’s eye and I plan to be it! 15 more days to my 30 day milestone and I cant wait to check another milestone off the list! I’m going to work super hard!
Well I think that’s it for now. Stay tuned for my update pictures tomorrow and weigh in. Thanks for reading my blog and following along with me and my weight loss journey. If you haven’t already, please subscribe and get instant notifications for new blog posts!!! <3
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